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I'm never gonna be the same again.
The songs I used to play repeatedly
Just bring back tainted memories.
I don't know where I went wrong.
I was carful and so young.
It's the same thing every time.
I overthink what words to say
And act out every scene in my head.
Can I leave this all behind?
I really fucked it up this time.
Once upon a time
I told myself everything was great
But it's always raining
In the sunshine state.
I've got nowhere else to run.
But I've always been the one
who said
"Keep your chin up
And move on"
I just want to be left alone.
When did my heart get so cold?
It's a long and ugly road.
It's dark and I
can hear rain
crashing on my window.
I'm doing 85 and
wondering if I ever mattered.
If I drive off this bridge and died,
Who would cry at my wake?
Well It keeps me awake at night,
Knowing that the world
never had a care for me.
Well as story goes,
I get a little older
And paint the image
Of a boy who lost control.
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2. |
Old Man Yells at Cloud
03:49
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I spent last night
Writing songs about you.
I spent my summer Indoors
Watching days just pass me by.
And I know that it's sad
But it's hard for me to understand
That I just need to do
whatever it is that makes me happy.
Take me back.
Back to when days seemed a little brighter.
Without these black clouds
Stalking every move
I choose to make.
And I know that It's sad
That it's hard for me to understand
That I just need to do
Whatever it is that makes me happy.
I'm knocking down these walls
Hoping to find some closure.
With each brick wall that falls
that feeling creeps a little closer.
And I'm sure
you've heard it all before.
Same complaints.
Just different metaphors.
It's gotten to the point
Where I can't feel happy anymore.
I know that it's sad
But it's hard for me to understand
That I just need to do
Whatever it is that makes me happy.
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3. |
Neck Deep
02:23
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Well I know you wont believe
Half of the words I have to say.
But if you'd hear me out tonight
It'll keep my mind at bay
Because I'm running out of time
And I'm here trying to figure out
Just exactly what I want to say
And what to talk about.
Let's talk about the trouble
That I've caused all of my life
Or How I feel like an outcast
Cause I don't believe in Christ.
I always seem to be the problem
To the ones I hold so close
And all the years that flew by me
left me feeling like a ghost.
I take deep breaths
when I start to panic.
I'm still neck deep,
Sinking in the Atlantic.
All these long nights
Are becoming a habit
When I just want some sleep.
I'm tired of building walls
That separate my friends from me.
I just wish I had a conscience
With a voice of honesty.
I know I've asked this question
at least a thousand times.
But I'm still waiting for an answer
That should come with your reply.
But all I hear is silence
And it drives up a wall.
It reminds me that a hero's
Something I don't need at all.
What I needed was a promise that
this hell would pass with time.
Then maybe this would help me
Find some fucking peace of mind.
So I
I take deep breaths
when I start to panic.
I'm still neck deep,
Sinking in the Atlantic.
All these long nights
Are becoming a habit
When I just want some sleep.
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4. |
Outskirts
03:55
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I don't want
To be apart of this.
Honestly
What's the point of it.
Reoccurring themes about
feeling lonely and strung out.
When the one thing that I want
Is to feel happy.
I'm living on the outskirts and I'm
Looking for an answer
As to why I'm such a fuck up
While I'm circling the drain.
I've lost all will to get by.
Gave this home the Irish goodbye.
I'm just trying to have an input
But the world just tunes me out.
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5. |
Paper Hearts
03:00
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We climbed the highest tree
And watched the world below.
We hung our paper hearts
With rope and sorrow.
The ghost of who I was
Still haunts this aching brain.
This empty feeling's
Getting hard for me to explain.
The burden of the promises
I never learned how to keep
Makes me feel like the
Ground will quake beneath my feet.
I disintegrate
Before I get the nerve to call
cause I'm too scared to hear
A voice ring through these
empty halls.
Well this is looking like the end so
Im saying bye to all the friends
Who have ever had a care for me.
If I'm going up in smoke,
I'm making sure that Im
Proud of every chance I took.
The burden of the future
Always sends a chill down my spine.
I'm driving down a dead end road,
Ignoring caution signs.
Rip out my epilogue.
My future's still not guaranteed.
Just throw the ashes of my
Confidence into the sea.
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I'm a mess
And I know that I wont be
Anything more than this.
"Just take deep breaths."
Is all they can tell me
But that just leads to stress.
I will try
To paint on a smile
Just for my parents sake.
Everyone
Seems to know what they're doing but I just can't relate.
Nothing's worse than
Feeling all alone.
I was cursed with
A heart made out of stone
And it drags me down.
Down into this hole
That I dug myself.
Someone send me help.
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7. |
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It's been a few months and I
know how much we all
Have grown since last September.
I just miss the way
Things used to be.
My plans were bigger then and I
Was scared to death
By how different life would be.
Now I'm feeling empty
Because My friends
felt like home.
Now I'm homesick
and all alone.
Take me back to when
Life was simpler.
When I wasn't apathetic
Towards everything life threw at me.
It's lack of motivation.
Every step I take
Is in a backwards motion and
I was hoping that you'd notice
That I haven't been the same for weeks.
This semester is ripping me apart.
I was dead weight from the very start
And I've been lost these past few weeks. I've been going through past conversations and Its crazy how much life has changed us.
But we're growing distant by the day.
But My friends felt like home
Now I'm homesick
And all alone.
Take me back to when
Life was simpler
and I wasn't apathetic
Towards everything life threw at me.
It's lack of motivation.
Every step I take
Is in a backwards motion.
I was hoping that you'd notice
That I haven't been the same for weeks.
I've never felt so fucking weak.
I think it's time that I admit,
You all moved on and I panicked.
Cause I'm scared and so confused
About what I'm supposed to do
But I'm slowly getting there.
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8. |
Disclosure
05:01
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I've got 10 bucks
That says you never gave a fuck
About me or about us.
You have a hole deep
In your heart and you try desperately
To fill it up
With some Hollywood cliche
That never lasts a month.
I know I'm coming off a little harsh.
Maybe I cared a bit too much.
I think back to that night
inside my car.
Parked outside your moms place.
You played your mixtape
And on that night
was when you told me
"Not that I know
much about being in love,
but a part me thinks
it would feel like this song"
I've got a habit of
Not catching every hint you drop.
Like the fact that you
Play the same three records over and over again
And how they sing about love.
And that's all you want to feel.
I hope you find it one day,
The love that you crave.
Like the song that made you say
"Not that I know
much about being in love,
but a part me thinks
it would feel like this song.
So I play it over and over again."
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9. |
1929
04:00
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I should have kissed you
When I had the chance.
I was sorta hoping
You'd understand
That I would trade
A thousands Yesterday's
Just to see your smile.
Cause my darling this road
goes on for miles.
Self Pity days
I'm locked up in my room.
I fall asleep and dream of you
Because that's all that I can do.
I wonder why
We're two worlds apart.
To hear your voice
Would cause the world to stop
And catch their breath.
But you had to move away
And I didn't have the guts to say
It's the little things
That stole my heart.
It's killing me
That you're so far away.
And as it seems
I'm balanced on
This fucking edge.
Should I spill my guts
And play the risk
Of losing one of my
Closest friends.
Cause I've been hoping,
we could be more than friends.
Yea I'm hoping, we can be
More than friends.
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